Status Updates

Katie is happy.

Katie is looking forward to tomorrow.

Katie is hoping that she gets a good grade on her Spanish test from Monday.

Katie is loves Phantom of the Opera sing-alongs in French!

Katie is procrastinating.

Katie is a little more than useless.

Katie is trying again.

Katie is trying, again.

Katie is hoping for lots of comments etc. tomorrow. Best present ever?

Katie is needs to clean her room

study for finals

write Christmas letter

copy stuff into thanksgiving book

call one of her favorite people

eat brownies and ice cream. Oh yeah.

I feel like, I would like
To be somewhere else doing something that matters
And I'll admit here, while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather
Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted like I've lost all my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
and I'm just scared, so scared that I'll fail you

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all

But then you assure me
I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

So I say if I can't, do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trival, that life could give me will
Measure up to what might have replaced it
Too late look, my date book
Is packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And I bet, that regret
Will prove to get me to improve in the long run

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all

But then you assure me
I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once
I'm a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

I notice, I know this
Week is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it, I spent it
Convincing myself the world's doing just fine
Without me
Doing anything of any consequence
Without me
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time , it's my life
And my right, to use it like I should
Like he would, for the good
Of everything that I would ever know

I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once
I'm a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

:-)

This seems to be en train de become my dumping ground for inspiring material.

I came across this quote in this month's Reader's Digest, in an interview with Denzell Washington.

They asked him what his life motto was, and he said, "Do what you got to do so that you can do what you want to do. And fail big."

I like it, but I think I'd like to change the last adjective to "trying."

Do what you gotta do so that you can do what you want to do. And fail trying.

die trying?

haha. I hope ...not? so? I hope not to die, but when I do, to die trying.

Failing big is just as bad (worse/better is debatable and a moot point) than failing small...but just giving up is the worst of all. (:-) If I'm going to make mistakes (*sigh*) I'd rather make them while trying, doing my best, than by giving up.

that is all.